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| User: | omnamahshivaya (7075200)  stream of consciousness
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| Name: | omnamahshivaya | |
| Bio: | I moderate the following communities on line here: http://community.livejournal.com/art_erotica/ http://community.livejournal.com/mystical_art/ To be an artist.... by Evelyn Cammarano, 06/28/06 To be an artist means to see and not be seen, to be witness to human nature and rain, ridges over landscapes, creases on faces, ants crawling up the pine tree, and splashes of chromatic ink stains on a page. To be an artist means to listen and not be heard, to hide in the shadows of birds, to stare up into the sun at noon, and watch the spots of stars falling into the silhouettes of timber and wolves and pigeons on roofs, on a horizon that goes vertical at the foot of mountains, and melts into the sea when the waves crash into the rocks. To be an artist means to feel and not be detected or felt, like a spy, you follow the footprints of sparrows, the pine cones' dents on the forest's floor, and the hatching sounds of the robins' eggs. To be an artist you must gather up all your crayons, and shred them into dust, plant them into the soil during a full moon, and dance the dance that calls forth the Muse.... it is not enough to just dream, you must create illusions of what you have seen, and record history and mark time for generations to come, and long for a lover who will never lust..... transform the lower self into the highest divine hum spoken by angels in the clouds of early morning mist.... an artist is not fully human, an artist has one foot in the grave, and knows life is a fleeting moment, and art is a pattern of energy, like those flashes of lightning in a storm.     Create your own visitor map! info i posted on fetlife.com http://fetlife.com/users/6411 i am an artist and my imagination is very strong.... and intense.... to me, domination is earned. it is a struggle for power... it is fun to struggle... and i need to be convinced he has it over me... i am a rebel. hard to master... and good at fucking the one fucking me over mind wise... out of rebellion and play.... need some one with humor... playfulness.... ya know what I mean? I am a newbie. I never did any of this in real life. I have lived through domestic violence and got a taste of what forced submission was. I have had discussions with Doms about the difference of abuse and domination/submission.... it all has to do with consent and desire. I know pain and pleasure are closely linked in the wiring of the physical brain and that the wires get crossed. I know that certain pain at certain times can bring about incredible orgasms. For instance, biting and sucking a nipple while cumming.... feeling a man dominate me with his power and energy and letting go of my control... it is not instanteaous for me... I have walls up.... I like to be lulled into it.... coaxed.... guided.... persuaded.... long slow foreplay..... up to submission... not forced... thenthe walls are still up and there is not letting go..... just tension and dissociation of a sort.... no floating..... love to float in pleasure.... I have found that hypnosis is a wonderful tool for me to achieve this letting go and relaxing into the guide of a dom..... found out I have assigned different parts to different fucntions in me.... sort of speak.... my imagination at play. I like the mystical.... the kundalini... the chakras... the energy.... the sexual being a lower vibration of the spiritual energy... all on the same continuum. The om of it all. The tantric sex of pleasure. I am not your average gal. I have my masters degree in art. I am an educator. I love learning and being creative. I have lived through a lot of bad things, but,I am good. I can be naughty.... but, I have emotional stability even though I like to play on the edge here. so...sounding crazy and being crazy are two very different things. remember that... so is BDSM and abuse.... two very different things. what turns me on? a man who loves to play and use the imagination. the mind is the biggest sex organ. I have been told by fuck buddies that i am hot.... that I give great oral.... and I have already been married more then once... and do not like the style of life that is traditional at all. Right now... I just want to play. | |
| Memories:: | 425 entries | |
| Pictures: | over 2100 public | |
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